Gifts of the Prodigal, Part 1

  Gifts of the Prodigal: Releasing My Guilt & Embracing Prayer   Trembling with anger and shock, I stomped down the snow-packed path. I stormed past the skating rink where my kids glided across the ice that dark December evening. I could hardly process...

Learning to Pray

  As I listened to the prayers of the two pastors beside me, I squirmed in the padded office chair. My turn was next and I scrambled to gather my thoughts.    It wasn’t that I was scared of praying out loud or sounding unintelligent. My problem was that I...

Bible Study: Lament Like This

  [ This is the introduction to my Bible Study on praying when your thoughts run out of control. ]   Do you struggle to focus on God when you open your Bible?     Do you fight to calm the chaos in the background of your mind?   A million thoughts...

“Are You Going Home For Christmas?”

“Are you going home for Christmas?” It was December 2003. The commonly asked question for this time of year hung in the air, unanswered. For most people, especially a 28-year-old like me, a simple yes or no response was all it required. But it wasn’t an easy question...

Asking God “Why?”

  It’s normal to ask God, “Why?”. Right?   “Why me?” Or, “Why did this happen?”    Why did my Grandma get Alzheimer’s? Why did my Mom die? Why did I have two miscarriages?   In my previous post, I shared how I found peace after having two...

Does God care about my miscarriage?

  Have you ever dreaded going to the bathroom?    It’s bizarre how pregnancy can turn a normal bodily function into something you dread.   My first two pregnancies were straightforward. “Textbook” pregnancies, as they say.    My third pregnancy...

When God Feels Far Away

    I sunk into the couch, inches away from a stranger.   This stranger was my new counsellor. I hoped she would ease the turmoil inside me, and fast!   She reached into her oversized purse and pulled out a white candle. Its waxy rim pushed halfway...