Christmas 2020 – Farewell to A(nother) Difficult Year

Christmas 2020 – Farewell to A(nother) Difficult Year

  I have this picture of what Christmas should look like in my head.    My Christmas Fantasy   In this picture, my husband has driven me and our five kids to my parents’ house. We park in the driveway where my dad has just cleared off two feet of fresh...

10 Things I Now Know About Being Motherless

I remember the last lie I told my mom.  One afternoon, a couple months before she died, I walked into my mom’s bedroom. She was clearly upset, and she usually kept that part of herself well hidden from me. But that was pre-cancer. Now, she faced her death sentence...
A Mother’s Day Poem, 2020

A Mother’s Day Poem, 2020

My Mother’s Day Wish   Another Mother’s Day looms before me, Reminders where ever I look. I wince when I see mothers with daughters my age, I can’t read their sentiments without pain.   You were my most important person, But now you’re a faint memory. I...

This Is Not My Season to Clean

  Before I was a mom, I was not by any stretch of the imagination a fastidious house cleaner. I could clean any room in my house and it would take several weeks at worst for it to look like it needed to be cleaned again.  And then I became a mom.  I quickly...